Forty six and two

My shadow's

Shedding skin and

I've been picking scabs again

I'm down

Digging through 

My old muscles

Looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly

Clearing out what could've been

I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions

For a piece to cross me over

Or a word to guide me in

I wanna feel the changes coming down

I wanna know what I've been hiding in

My shadow

My shadow

Change is coming through my shadow

My shadow's 

Shedding skin

I've been picking scabs again

I've been crawling on my belly 

Clearing out what could've been

I've wallowing in my own chaotic and insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me

Feel the outside turning in

I wanna feel the metamorphosis and 

Cleansing I've endured within

My shadow

My shadow

Change is coming

Now it's my time

Listen to my muscle memory

Contemplate what I've been clinging to

Forty-six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to

Grow, take and give and to

Move, learn and love and to

Cry, kill and die and to

Be paranoid and to

Lie, hate and fear and to

Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to

Lie, kill and give and to

Die, learn and love and to

Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing

Stretching up and over me

Soften this old armor

Hoping it can clear the way by

Stepping through my shadow

Coming out the other side

Step into the shadow

Forty-six and two are just ahead of me